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01 April 2009 @ 06:32 pm
it gets thrown back in your face.

Why bother?
The world:: bed
The mood:: depresseddepressed
The inspiration:: My Skin - Natalie Merchant
30 March 2009 @ 04:04 pm
So, as many of you may now know I am throwing a party for Jasmine. Well, she wanted to invite some guys and since the only guy I know is a friend of a friend I asked Ann Marie (the friend) to ask Fabian (the friend of a friend) if he wanted to come and she reported back to me that I'd have to talk to him in Japanese and I asked if I could just do it at lunch. That was fine and I followed Ann Marie to the computer room where it was so freaky. It was like a city of nerds doing their own thing, laughing at nerdy pictures, talking about math ect. I don't know if I should admit it but I liked it there. Isabella would totally kill me if she ever heard me say that. But it was really nice, they had their own social system and way of doing things. And Fabian, my god, he was the popular guy. It was so warped.

Ugh, painting & Drawing class. Don't mind the 'ugh', I actually LOVE it even though I suck at drawing. It's a nice, fun, light class. The perfect way to end a monday at school. The teacher is helpful and doesn't mind if you talk and I'm with some people that I don't mind being with. Today though Jessica really irked me. She accidentally painted on the desk and then just covered it up with her paper and laughed. It wasn't funny and I told her to clean it up before it smudges and dries but she wouldn't. I'm not a neat freak or anything but that just seemed so... grade two. Alisha and I spent about 15 minutes telling her to clean it up and she wouldn't - saying it was an accident. That kinda made me mad, I mean, lets say you knock over the milk at home, you clean it up even though it was an accident. She hadn't done it by the end of the lesson and so the teacher cleaned it up which I thought was not fair at all because we'd told her over 20 times to do it and she still hadn't and so the paint had dried up and smudged. Plus the tables were all smooth and shiny when we came in and though another guy in the class had got paint all over the table he still cleaned it up without anyone asking - and he is like the most immature person in the grade. So Alisha, Emily and I ended up leaving the class kind of angry at her. I mean, for godsakes, we're in year 9 now and this is stuff a grade two needs to be told to do. Some people need to show some responsibility for their actions and grow up.

The world:: my bed
The mood:: frustratedfrustrated
The inspiration:: Poker Face - Lady GaGa
26 March 2009 @ 12:56 pm
0.5 x b x h = area of a triangle
l x w = area of a rectangle
l2= area of a square
3/4 x pi x r3 = volume of a sphere
(b x b) x h = volume of a cube/rectangle
pi x r2 = B x H = volume of a cylinder
4/3 x pi x r2 = volume of a sphere
pi x r2 = area of a circle
angle/360 x pi x r2 = area of a sector
b x h = area of a parallelogram
0.5 x (a+b) x h = area of a rhombus
pi x d = circumference of a circle
2 x pi x r = circumference of a circle using radius
angel/360 x 2 x pi x r = arc length

too bad I won't remember half of this in the math test tomorrow
The mood:: depresseddepressed
The inspiration:: nothing
25 March 2009 @ 03:45 pm
I'm so stressed out at the moment with school work and homework and friends and i just feel like dying. Would somebody please just make me smile today instead of crying?
The world:: Home
The mood:: stressedstressed
The inspiration:: Caught in the crowd - Kate Miller Heidke
24 March 2009 @ 03:45 pm

So today I felt positively SPARKLING!

Start Date: Monday March 23nd, 2009 
End Date: Sunday March 30th, 2009
Todays Thing: Get all work due in on time/Ask for help when needed/be a good friend
Info: So I have a habit of getting things in late... I finished my homework this morning before school and only one thing was due so I felt I kind of cheated. I'm struggling in math at the moment because I've been away and the teacher can't control the class and she doesn't make sense. So I swallowed my pride and asked Caitlin to help me, and it was good, she really did help a lot. There are still some things I don't understand so she said she would help me tomorrow too. And today, I found out that we have a CLOSED book math test tomorrow. how awesome right? I'm so going to fail.  Today at lunch time Jess (one of my friends) was kind of exiled from the group because she said a mean thing to Jasmine and Jacqui doesn't like her much. She did apologise and she did say she wasn't thinking, and I know its hard to forgive but she's a friend of mine and I don't have a problem with her because she doesn't tend to think before she speaks. So at lunch time she was standing all alone and my heart went out to her, it really did because I know what it's like to be that girl. So I told her to come stand with us, and she didn't get a very walm reception but I tried to include her and asked her to sleep over sometime and invited her to the library with me and Caitlin. It looked like Jasmine patched things up with her while me and Cait were doing math so it's all good? I felt kinda warm and fuzzy afterward.

Tom's Thing: Smile more. I don't do it a lot so I should make an effort to. Maybe smiling all day will rub off on me.
The mood:: happyhappy
The inspiration:: Don't need the sun to shine - Gabrielle
23 March 2009 @ 04:03 pm
Start Date: Monday March 23nd, 2009 
End Date: Sunday March 30th, 2009
Todays Thing: Make my feelings known
Info: So I usually just let people forget when they forget about me but when it's a really good friend who's doing it I should tell them how I feel... and so I did today. Cait and I did a lap of the oval just talking and stuff and I think we're okay now. I wasn't gonna do the 7 Day Challenge but that inspired me to

Tom's Thing: Get all due work in on time.
The mood:: happyhappy
The inspiration:: Trouble is a Friend - Lenka
20 March 2009 @ 07:21 am
So you don't want me anymore?
A sick kid is too much for you?
You don't even know how sick I am.
If you would like me you wouldn't last a week.
You'd just crack into a million little pieces.
You think you're stronger than me?
That you have more mental strength?
You don't even have a job.
I've been on this earth for fourteen years.
You don't know me at all.
you don't know me at all...
The world:: Bed
The mood:: pissed offpissed off
19 March 2009 @ 10:46 pm
I'm attempting a letter to my nanna.
I doubt it will work.
It will probably make everything worse.
The world:: Bed
The mood:: gloomygloomy
The inspiration:: My loud uncle
18 March 2009 @ 08:58 pm
Start Date:

End Date:
Todays Thing:
Tom. Thing:

I don't know if I can do this.
I don't know how to make myself bright and shiny.
I fail at everything 99% of the time.
I'm stuck in the background.
I'm in a class surrounded by lazy/stupid people.
I feel alone in every class that isn't an elective.
There's nothing I can do about it.
The world:: Bed
The mood:: depresseddepressed
The inspiration:: You Found Me - The Fray
17 March 2009 @ 04:17 pm
This is just getting crazy freaky.
It started out with a thought.
No, I'll never get to go to Sweden.
Then the assembly
I went to Sweden when I was fifteen... it was really fun... you can do it with the exchange
Then the crazy dreams.
Are you having fun in Sweden? It's so cold here in Sweden... It's a miracle that I'm in Sweden.
Then the random conversations I overhear
Sweden... You should go to Sweden... I've never been to Sweden... sweden... Sweden... SWEDEN
Then the phone call
Hi, this is _____ from Southern Cross cultral exchange... So I hear you want to go to Sweden...
This is getting crazy.
Why is all this stuff happening if it's never gonna happen?

The world:: my bed
The mood:: contemplativecontemplative
The inspiration:: nothing