it gets thrown back in your face.

Why bother?

I'm so stressed out at the moment with school work and homework and friends and i just feel like dying. Would somebody please just make me smile today instead of crying?

So today I felt positively SPARKLING!

YOUR INFO.
Start Date: Monday March 23nd, 2009 
End Date: Sunday March 30th, 2009
Todays Thing: Get all work due in on time/Ask for help when needed/be a good friend
Info: So I have a habit of getting things in late... I finished my homework this morning before school and only one thing was due so I felt I kind of cheated. I'm struggling in math at the moment because I've been away and the teacher can't control the class and she doesn't make sense. So I swallowed my pride and asked Caitlin to help me, and it was good, she really did help a lot. There are still some things I don't understand so she said she would help me tomorrow too. And today, I found out that we have a CLOSED book math test tomorrow. how awesome right? I'm so going to fail.  Today at lunch time Jess (one of my friends) was kind of exiled from the group because she said a mean thing to Jasmine and Jacqui doesn't like her much. She did apologise and she did say she wasn't thinking, and I know its hard to forgive but she's a friend of mine and I don't have a problem with her because she doesn't tend to think before she speaks. So at lunch time she was standing all alone and my heart went out to her, it really did because I know what it's like to be that girl. So I told her to come stand with us, and she didn't get a very walm reception but I tried to include her and asked her to sleep over sometime and invited her to the library with me and Caitlin. It looked like Jasmine patched things up with her while me and Cait were doing math so it's all good? I felt kinda warm and fuzzy afterward.

Tom's Thing: Smile more. I don't do it a lot so I should make an effort to. Maybe smiling all day will rub off on me.

Um so today Mir ran her new fanfiction past me... okay, those of you who know me are probably going "oh, she's not going to read that." But as Mir talked about it I got all into it and stuff. I won't tell you the idea because that's her job but let me tell you - I have read the prologue or whatever you want to call it and oh my god it is so awesome. Even though it's Greys Anatomy and I never ever read Greys fanfiction. Or fanfiction in general. But whatever this was amazing. It gave me bright and shiny bubbles of inspiration so I opened up Word and started writing...

 

( The woman stretched below the flickering streetlight. )

 

So feedback would be awesome. Obviously its not finished yet but I'm not sure whether to continue.

So I stayed home today, Jasmine gave me her illness. Nothing eventful happened, I fell asleep again and woke up at 11 or so. Talked to Mir. At about six I went to the doctor and apparently I have a throat infection.
Which is weird because I'm faking sick.
Well, kind of. My nose is all runny and crap and my ears sometimes pop when I swallow but my throat doesn't hurt at all.
When I was getting my medication (yeah, I have to take antibiotics... not sure thats good) the chinese lady who was serving me kinda lent over the counter all secretive right and she was like "are you taking oral contraceptive?" I dunno why I found that so funny, maybe I'm just immature lol.

Jasmine slept over on Saturday night, it was weird that her parents let her. She might be sleeping here on Sunday which is cool and we're getting Chinese for dinner (mainly because the hottest guy i have ever seen works there and she wants to see him). I told her some things to say in chinese *insert perverted smile here* (thank you google translator!).

I should probably go now even though I'm not going to school tomorrow.

So today I overslept my alarm (like usual) but my dad woke me up at 8am so it was alright. I ate breakfast and did my hair and thought how impossible Sweden would be and then we left. We waited in the office for Mr. O'Neil, our assistant principal. A few teachers passed us, I didn't know any of them except for, of course, McSatan. I said hello to her in this really sweet, evil voice and she gave me the infamous death glare of hers. Mr. O'Neil came shortly after that and sorted me into the grade, except it is 9D now and not 9H, still foundation but no McSatan. He put me into Painting and Drawing first class but he made a mistake and told me to go to 3D Shapes. As I walked into the room it kinda went silent and then someone went "she's baaaack". Miss N, who I might add is a total BITCH, didn't look too pleased to learn that I was in her class because everyone was weeks into their project and I had nothing. So I ended up drawing for the first two periods.

We had an assembly so it meant our periods were 10 minutes shorter or so. Year 9 takes place in the gym and I met our co-ordinator, Mr. Gorman who is quite nice. He read out all the boring announcements and then told us someone was here to speak to us and this lady stepped forward and intoduced herself. I don't remember her name but she was talking about exchange students and stuff. I was so tempted to tune out because I thought my dad would never ever let me go because it costs a lot but something kept me listening. She read out the list of countries we could choose from; America (aka, United States), Ireland, Germany, Italy, France, French Canada, Denmark, Finland, Holland, Japan, Norway, South Africa and wait for it - SWEDEN! That made me listen and she told us all about how when she was 15 she went on a trip to Sweden, and she stayed with a host family just outside of Stockholm, and on her first week she came face to face with a moose and people wanted to know if we had kangaroos going down our streets. She said we didn't have to know the language to go there and yes, it would be hard but people were friendly and translated for her. By then me and my friends were all OMGYES!

Recess was fun! Fun! I didn't realise how much I missed Caitiepants and Jacquetta and Jasmine Tea till I saw them again!

I went back to Mr O'Neil because I didn't have a locker yet and got my stuff and he told me that I had English and Science next. I have Mrs Manarcus for English and she was quite nice! I sat with some girls I vaguely knew and she got my name wrong and called me Chantelle. Seriously. So far this year I've been both Chantelle and Catherine. Great. I finished my rough draft before anyone else and started my good copy. The aid, Mrs Baker came up to me and started talking to me in really small words and slowly before asking if I was supposed to be in a different class and I explained and all of the sudden she used big words and talked faster. It was a little bit funny.

Science was alright, I sat with Anne Marie and Stephen Kenny, two people I knew that were okay and we made a map of the human body. There were too other people with us too but I only remember the girls name - Anh. The teacher was a bitch but bearable.

After lunch I went to Mr. Gorman, the co-ordinator and he sorted out my math class and electives, Painting and Drawing on Mondays, Japanese on Tuesdays (I only did that because that would be so awesome to be with Issy and Caitlin and drive Mr. Yoshi mad), Wednesdays Drama and then Japanese, Thursdays Painting and Drawing and Friday Drama with Caitlin. I got slotted into MAC with Mrs Owen and by the time I got to Maths there was only ten minutes left of the period so I didn't have to do any work.

IFT was fun! The teacher we had, Miss Frankish was just like Mrs T. from year 7, absolutely awesome! I didn't do any work in that class either because I didn't have any login info but I got the newsletters and stuff. It was funner than I thought it would be and I hope tomorrow is the same.

So I've been here for four days now. Its scary. It doesn't feel as if it has been that long at all...
I've been moping under my covers for four days straight, only coming out to eat, pee, see Jasmine and shower.
There is a 1% chance Werribee will change their mind and let me back in... I want to go back, I don't want to go to Galvin.
My dad is halfway willing to let me attend school at the Werribee Community centre where I can get my year 10 pass a year early. My sister went there for a year and a half.
It's a school for misfits, people with problems, people who are different. People like me?
Maybe I need to get help. I don't want to end up a basket case like Dixon off Greys. Or maybe its too late.

I'm worried about my friend Courtney. I know its propbably stupid and all but I used to see her online at least once a day and I haven't seen her online since before I left. Caitlin says she is fine but I dunno, I just worry.
I'm worried about Jasmine too, about leaving her at Werribee. I know she won't be alone, she'll have Jacqui, Caitie and Issy and Jessica and even the pansy Josh and his angry friend Jesse (who she thinks is hot or something? I dunno, you two would make a great couple?). But I kinda feel like I was her outlet for... prawns (inside joke) and other things. I guess Jacqui could be her new 'me' but I dunno how I feel like that I'm afraid of losing contact with her.

Speaking of Jasmine, we caught up on Thursday. Got some Slurpees and walked down to the tables where we laughed about stuff and I found the initials I engraved into the table. We went and saw Chantel B. too, she has not changed at all lookswise. I havent talked to her long enough to see if her personality has changed.

Today I was awoken by my dad who said we had people coming to look at the house. I was sooo tired and quickly got dressed and made my room perfect in 5 minutes flat... Then I came out and they had left! I was very annoyed by that. My dad left shortly after and I retreated into my bed and waited for Dollhouse to be uploaded. Mir came on and we talked a bit.
I'm dying my hair tomorrow, either going Ella Scott Lynch:
( Ella Scott Lynch )
or Drew Barrymore:
( Drew Barrymore )
With both I'll also have to bleach my hair and by some kind of black hair color spray to cover it up while I'm at home. My dad would have a fit.
I'm going to my sisters tomorrow, might see baby Danika. Kathleen can help me with my hair seeing as she has done hers a million times.
I should probably sleep really soon so I'll cut this post off here.

My new years resolution:
to be more honest.
I'm not exactly calling myself a liar, but occasionally I do tell little white lies to people because I don't want to hurt them, but yet I know that I would want to know so I could change it or fix it. So all of 2009 you can expect a totally honest answer.


Good stuff of 2008
#1 Meeting Courtney and spending the day with my friends, October 12th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/25314.html

#2 My birthday party, October 17th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/27201.html

#3 FInishing NaNoWriMo, November 25th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/31281.html

#4 The Library with Caitlin and Courtney, November 29
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/31976.html

#5 Presidents Park with the bffwaffles, December 18th (?)
No entry

Bad stuff of 2008
#1 My sister coming over and telling me she wanted to kill herself, October 1st
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/23400.html

#2 4 lines a stanza, October 9th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/24398.html

#3 My dad on drugs, October 16th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/27135.html

#4 My dad forgetting my birthday, October 19th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/27632.html

Weird stuff of 2008
#1 I am a genius, August 8th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/11900.html

#2 Serial killer pictures, August 10
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/12138.html

#3 Mrs Robinson not being evil, August 29th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/15864.html

#4 A day with Jasmine, August 31st
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/16481.html

#5 Finding my double, September 24th
http://junkyard-song.livejournal.com/21349.html

Books of 2008
#1 The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 - Ann Brashares


#2 New Moon - Stephenie Meyer


Movies of 2008
#1 Tin Man


#2 Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging


#3 St. Trinians


Artists of 2008
#1 Regina Spektor
#2 Those Dancing Days
#3 Emiliana Torinni

People of 2008
#1 Emelie, Karlee, Jasmine, Jacqueline, Caitlin, Miranda, Elin
(Sorry you guys, you are all so awesome that I couldn't decide who was number one)

#2 Courtney, Isabella, Megan, Simone, Lithy
(You are all tied as well)

#3 De-anne, Siti, Nicole

TV of 2008
#1 True Blood


#2 Dead Like Me


#3 Pushing Daisies


Happy new year to everyone, may you be blessed.

1) What’s their name?
Jasmine


2) Does she or he have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Not at the moment


3) Do you get along with this person most of the time?
She's like a freaking sister to me


4) Has he/ she ever cooked for you?
I believe I ate some of the crap she made in Food Tech


5) Is this person older than you?
Nope, she's about six months younger


6) Are you really close to him/ her?
She's my bffwaffle


7) Nick name?
Jas, Jazzpants


9) Do you think they will repost this?
Maybe if I force her? :P


10) Could you live with this person?
Sure, we'd share our sims games :D


11) Why is this person your number 1?
Because SHE IS MY BFFWAFFLE :D:D


12) How long have you known this person?
Met her in grade 2, we're almost in year 9... 7 years almost :D:D


13) Have you ever been to the city with this person?
Nope, don't think so


14) Have you ever had a sleep over with this person?
We've had about 2 :D


15) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
YES! I'd be all 'noooooooooo come back I'm going crazy! THE OTHERS, THEY WONT TALK ABOUT TEH PR0NZ WIT ME"!

16) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
We've done lots of stupid and illegal stuff ;)

18) Have you ever made something with this person?
A BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP!
apart from that we made sims families together


19) Have you ever been skinny dipping with this person?
lol no, none of us have a pool ;)


20) Is your #1 on drugs?
She overdoses on sugarrr sometimes :D


21) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
Nope lol they wouldn't fit me


22) Have you and your #1 person made up a hand shake?
WE TRIED AND FAIIIIIIIIIILED


23) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
No, cuz we don't hate each other :D


24) have you ever heard this person sing?
Probably lol


25) Do you and this person have a saying?
We've had lots of sayings, I remember one from grade 5, it was 'CLEAN AND CLEAR AND UNDER CONTROL' we stole it


26) Do you know this persons myspace password?
Nope lol but its probably about prons


27) Have you and him/ her gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 days?
Yes, we've had one that lasted weeks lol


28) Have you and this person gone clubbing?
Nope, not old enough


29) Do you like this person?
I hate her
>.<
If I hated her, would she really be my number 1?


30) Has this person yelled at you?
Yes :P When I teased her about HARDER and stuff like that


31) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
Nope lol


32) Does this person root homeless men on the side of the road?
Probably!!
*runs from jasmine*
no okay she doesn't! :P


Now repost this as:
Can you answerr 32 about your #1

So today was my party. Things were sort of looking up at home but not that much.
Jasmine came at four and I straightened her hair. Issy came next then Caitlin & Courtney, then Jacqui came and then Jessica. There was seven of us all together. We started off with the pass the parcel then went for a walk. Caitlin was busy snogging Josh whose house we went to. We then got slurpees and I started feeling down. We went back to Josh's and waited for them to stop snogging. We walked home and had birthday cake. We played truth or dare and laughed a lot. It was good getting away from everything. We got on the topic of sex and we laughed about that. Issy's mum came but she was kind enough to wait 10 minutes or so. Jessica's mum came and then Issy and Jess went home. Caitlin's dad came to take Cait and Courtney home and before they left Caitlin was like "Who has sexual fantasies about Carlisle" and then everyone said me lol. As they went out the gate I called Caitlin the sexual fantasy revealer. Jacqui went next and me and Jasmine cleaned up. Jasmine is staying the night.

I have Issy's party tomorrow! OMG we had so much sugaaaaaar tonight.

 

( SOS NaNoWriMo plan )

Over the past two years I've made more friends than I ever had in Primary school. Year 7 was Georgi, Caitlin and Kate, only three but still they got me through the year. This year I still have Caitlin (and Jasmine from primary school) but it seems I always have someone to run to. Jacqui, Issy, Leighton & Stacey, Nicky, Siti and Alisha. These guys have become my family. Caitlin and Jasmine and Isabella and even Jacqui are like sisters to me, and Leighton could be the dirty minded brother, Nicky & Siti & Stacey & Alisha are my cousins. You guys make life so much easier at school. One day I will find a way to thank you guys.

So, overslept today, but not for very long. Arrived at school an hour or so later to discover Caitlin would not be attending school as she threw up three times. So I waited in the hallway while occasionally making "Blow Daine" jokes to Fabian. Jacqui soon arrived and we went to Science where we did electricity stuff. Jacqui and I talked about "Fradentical" twins and we decided that we were Fradentical Woglets (She's half greek, half Aussie, and I'm half Italian, half Aussie... Lishaa is our fellow half woglet :P she's half German, half Aussie).

The bell went and we went to English. I collected my poems and stuff and we did a little bit of theory and then spelling. I hope I land up in 9E next year and have Mrs T.

Recess was spent with Jazz Pants of course.

Art. The usual chillout zone. Mrs G weirded up the tables so we were all squished together. Sat next to my fradentical woglet and the other woglet. We did a weird painting thing with Gesso (Which reminded us of Gello). The Fradentical Woglet and I spent half the lesson drawing Deliah and Delores, the two dinosaurs which would carry Bella, Jacob, Rosalie, Mike, Eric, Tyler and Esme off to some land away from the other vamps. Alter Ego Jacqui and Alter Ego CJ controlled the dinosaurs while Siti sailed overhead with a kite made out of her headscarf and Nicky and Alisha glided along on her leg. Down on the ground Edward carried Jacqui off to his love nest and Carlisle and I danced.

The Fradenticle Woglet and I hung out at lunch with Jazz Pants and we talked about beauty and inner beauty. We had a skank attack when McSatan and two Identical skanks walked past us. I wonder what Identical skanks are called... Skadentical?

Had Japanese next... actually did a little work. Issy got sent out. I have a jam packed weekend, my party on the Friday and hers on the Saturday. Geography and The Fradentical Woglet and I sat together and listened to the teacher lecture at the start and then we did our work...

Other news: I started editing my NaNo 06 novel (unfinished), Almost Perfect.

So today I met Jasmine and she came over :) I brought my camera with me so you guys have a picture filled entry :P

I woke up at 10:40 and dragged myself to the computer. Chatted to Mir for a while before Jasmine came online and then we chatted until about 12 and she asked what time we were going to meet up, and then I argued with my dad about taking Ella with us, because he wanted to take her on a walk with him but Ella makes me walk faster :P I won in the end and then got my camera and my iPod and my money and left.

It was such a nice day to start with, the sun was shining and there was a nice breeze.



I actually got to the tables before Jasmine for once, but she was only like a minute later. So we walked to the servo (7/11) and got slurpees. I gave some to my dog and some landed on her ear lol and I had to wipe it off. So then we were almost underneath the floodway (which never actually floods) and there was a really cool grafitti mural.











Then we reached the other side of the bridge over the floodway and Jasmine took a picture of the top of it, which is seriously creepy looking.



That was when the clouds rolled in, ruining the perfect day, but not by too much.
Then I got a new boyfriend, his name is Damien :P



Jasmine told me I had to snog him, so I did. He wasn't a very good kisser :P.
Then we headed home.



We were considering going to lake but it was a bit far so we settled for a puddle.


Yeah, thats her feet and one of mine.

It started raining like crazy when we were a few streets away from my place and we laughed because it was cool and I sang some of that 'singing in the rain' song, and it was kinda funny considering the only thing I remembered of the lyrics was 'singing in the rain'.

So here is the same vacant lot from the start of my day, but greyer and rainy.




Then we reached my street and saw my dad as we were taking a picture of my street sign.



We got home and I made up some cordial for us and we played the sims.



I love her hair! It is so long and I wish I had hair like that lol.



Then I made us lunch which was sandwichs and played sims for a while longer before I made her noodles and I had my lasagna. Then we watched Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging. I got a shot of her being caught in the act of being sleazy :P



And then she saw that I caught her in the act of being sleazy and immediately was shocked!



She decided to try and play innocent.



But everybody knows the real Jasmine!

So I had my whole day planned out for tomorrow with Jazz pants and then her parents had to go and ruin it by not letting her go because they afraid she would get raped or something. I found this kind of funny because where we were supposed to go all I had ever seen was a creepy old lady and her two dogs. Seriously, no gangsters or whatever.

I am not stupid and I would never go to a place where I could be kidnapped and raped and stuff. Her parents don't trust me or my dad though and I am not sure why exactly. Maybe it is the fact that my dad works a lot of the time and leaves me and my sister alone in the house, but he is a single parent, and yeah I suppose sometimes I get angry because he is not around but I know he loves us and he is doing it for us, so we can have a good life.

Jasmine is not even allowed to sleep over here. I don't know what her parents think we could get up to, I am not brave/stupid enough to go for a walk in the dark and we're both old enough to know not to play with fire or knives. All we'd be doing is sitting at my computer playing the sims and talking and then eventually sleeping. It irritates me a lot. I mean, I know she is 13 and I'm about to turn 14 but we act like mature adults most of the time, and the only things we don't do that are mature is the occasional joke that is well... not appropriate for anyone under the ages of 16 or so lol.

Anyway, we rescheduled our whoel day so now I am forced to tell my dad I have a day off. But at least she will come here so that is a plus. We're going to watch a movie and then play sims so it'll be fun and warm but I still wish we could have done our original plan.

Life sucks like that though, so there is really nothing I can do.

So nothing happened today, well not really.
Started off with English and Mrs C was away again. We did our text responses. Geography next, and surprise surprise, another lecture. I did not miss her at all on Friday.

Science was cool, we watched a DVD called the Inconvienient Truth, with that Al Gore dude and it had a clip from futurama in it where the little girls icecream melted and a guy said it was the fault of Global Warming and she was like "global wobble?". It was seriously cute. I started that story again, the one about the girl who gets super powers. I really do hope it is better than it sounds. Then we had Math and Mrs. G was back which was cool.

Caitlin hung out with Leighton, Jasmine and I in the library today and we played Uno, without being kicked out for once, though we did get yelled at a few times by Miss L who is seriously cranky all the time. Caitlin and I have a few theories to share about this, but none appropriate to share :P

Textiles was frustrating. I couldnt find my pants/cushion design so I made a gay looking one onto to find the original before the lesson finished. It was all good though.

Also I think I am coming down with something, for real this time, I'm not just "sick". I asked the others if they would have "injuries" tomorrow and they said maybe. Caitlin said she may have a real injury instead of just an "injury" from the supertopsecret secret she has. And no Jasmine, that is not to be taken as something Dirty. I know how your mind opperates missy, and I only have the best intentions. Anyway, back on topic, Jacqetta may have an "injury" and Siti said she may have one too. Alisha said she wouldn't, but then again who knows with her.

Onto the story. Currently untitled.
There are two of them, one in "I" and one in "she". Please tell me which is better!

So today was pretty good. Caitie Pants was at Hockey so that meant I got to spend some quality time with Jacqetta.

Drama was pretty awesome as always, Mrs. Hall is so eccentric, and stern but so awesome. I sat next to Jacqetta and Nickers was in front of us and we pretty much spent the whole lesson talking and laughing about random stuff like how Mrs. Hall talks to herself, and how it would be totally awesomely random if everyone in the yr. 8 classes suddenly burst into song and dance like they do in HSM.

English was uneventuf, Mrs. C was away. I finished reading Once (awesome book by Morris Gleitzman about the Nazis) and sat there the rest of the lesson. We had a test in math, but it was okay. Percentages mostly suck though, and we're doing Probability and Sets next, and I flipped back to that part of the textbook, and seriously oh my god, it was like Algebra, but so much worse. I really do not know how I will survive that topic.

Caitie pants reappeared for Japanese and she was feeling sick so I told her I would marry Mr. Bean, and then I asked her if she would like to be the godmother of our blob-like children (alisha, Josh, Jesse, Yoshi, Nicky and Bean Jr.) and she accepted. I asked her boyfriend if he would be the godfather but he declined so I asked Issy and she was said no so I told her she could be the Fairy Godmother. I proceeded to draw Caitie Pants starring our friends (the top was me, Caroltop, the pants herself, the socks Siti, the knickers Nickers (lol, Nicky) and of course Jacqetta the jacket). She went home after that so I proceeded to Geography.

Mrs. R was in such a crappy mood, she got mad because six people failed the test and yelled at the whole class (seriously is it all of our faults if half the class are dumbasses who have total disregard for the rest of us?). I sat next to Fabian and Jacqetta and was seriously grossed out by the amount of dandruff on Fabian's head. He didn't want to sit next to me but I went told him it wasn't like I was going to kiss him or anything (lol, only people who were in Wood Tech yesterday would get that) and he said he knew, but he was afraid I would kill him :P.

Then finally, it was 3pm and we could finally go home and recuperate for the weekend. Everyone is more impatient on Fridays. The people in the corridoor were pushing and shoving and standing around, but I still got to my bus.

I got a new computer screen and it is seriously huge. None of my wallpapers fit anymore :(. Anyway, I put up a new layout of the two aunts from Pushing Daisies. Then my sister came over, and she is still here, but luckily her and her sugar daddy (literally!) are conversing with my dad and I am left to listen to my music and chat to Jasmine.

My ankle still hurts from sport on Wednesday morning. I hope it is gone by next week because running on an ankle that hurts everytime you twist it is a pain in the neck.

Anyway, I am tired so I'll cut this journal entry off right here.